I haven’t felt like myself lately; I think burnout from school is finally catching up to me. I’ve been going to class non-stop since the end of January. That’s a reallyyyy long time. Even between the end of spring semester and start of summer classes I only had five days (and only then because it was a holiday weekend). This extended torture has pretty much made my mind shut down. I still do everything that needs to be done for work and school, but completely on autopilot. I didn’t think I’d been acting differently, but M asked me several times in the past week what was wrong and why I was acting so “weird.”
Anyway, I spent this weekend trying to figure out how to snap out of it. Generally, when I get burned out, all I need is a day or two of doing whatever and I’m fine. But I’ve been spending most weekends doing whatever (minus a couple hours of hw) and my mood never changes. I’m not sad or depressed or anything, I’m just….not happy. I’m actually a very optimistic, carefree person, despite how cynical I may come across on this blog lol, but lately my mood has been downgraded from happy-go-lucky to just content and it bothers me. A lot. I suppose I should be thankful that burnout doesn’t make me feel suicidal or something, but it’s so frustrating to be stuck at a mood-level below what I’m used to, if that makes any sense. No matter how much baking, walking, television watching, or internet surfing I do, I just can’t get past this brick wall. Vacation better fix this…..